A Guy Can Wait

You are beautiful

The freckles on your skin calls out to me

I want to kiss each mark on your body

The smell of you

The sweetness of your mere fragrance

Wreaks havoc to my senses, to my soul, to my being

Alone

Tonight

Here

Together

In a room that had served as a shelter

To homeless lovers like ourselves

I wanted you so badly

I wanted to cut the distance between us

To a measure where intimate touches are all we can do

I wanted to study you

From the strands of your unkempt hair

To the colored nails of the toes on your feet

I’ll worship you

I’ll never forget

I will remember each and every single piece of you

Every nook

Every corner

Every sound that’ll come out of your mouth

I am ready

I have done this before

I know I could make you happy

But will that be enough?

Are you ready?

I don’t know

Do I care?

I do

But why should I do this to you?

Why are you letting me do this to you?

Because we love each other

You’re every breathe I take

And you take my breath away

I’m not forcing myself on you

But judging from the tears

Building up in the corner of your eyes

You are scared

Even if your body succumbs itself to me

Even if the heat of you

Stokes the ember of my being

I stopped myself

I love you

And I know you love me too

I don’t need proof

My hormones are driving me crazy

And yours are clouding your senses

You are driving me to insanity

But I’m in control

I don’t want you to venture

The dangerous unknown with me

The fright from what we’ve done

The guilt resonating from the depths of your soul

The possibility of nine months of shame and suffering

And it’s miracle

I’d want to spend the nine months with you smiling

Every single day of it

I need to spend the forever with you

Without regrets

Without skeletons from our closets

I can take things slow

I’ve promised we’ll not rush

I can wait

For you

I can

I will