I was uninspired but you inspired me --- you, you, you and you.
Every year, for the past three years and the years beyond today, you'll always inspire me - to be better, to be a bitch, to be fabulous, to be who I am and to be whoever I want to be. Well, who would've known that we will last this long? Who would've knew that despite our differences and despite the differences, we've made it through. We're still here, though for how long I do not know. But in my heart, you know I hope that I could get to grow old with you, sing Abba songs with you, maybe some TS songs too. (Note: TS - either The Script or the Taylor Swift) I'd really love to walk down the aisle with you, with you girls on my back or with me leading the way. Well, someday. Let's try that someday. For now, let's get on with our lives and leave a part of each day for each other. Maybe not everyday, but on happy days and sad days and in betweens.
I know I'm not the perfect friend, I talk a lot and butt in a lot and try to take control of most of our conversations. You know how I love to talk, especially talking with you girls. I feel like I can almost always share anything. Without judgment, but with a little scolding, guidance, giggles and weird comments here and there. You've taught me that friendship isn't always smooth sailing,and as in any relationship (that despite the easy way we could jive) I should always put in a lot of effort, a lot of love and a lot of commitment into it.
I know you've been giving all those too - effort, love and commitment - because I know that if there's one sure thing we've learned from forever talking about life and love is that every relationship works not from love alone but from a lot of things. I know that when I'm sad and gloomy or not myself, you'll always know there's something amiss or you'll talk to me and say, "Chiquitita, tell me what's wrong?" and you'll tell me "How I(you) hate to see you (me) like this ".
I know you'll always be my "super troupers", the girls I could call when I need to go after the girl who stole my guy, the ones who'll drink with me when I've just got the best job ever, the ones who'll laugh at my silly jokes and weird antics, the one who'll call for sleepovers when I get my heart broken over a boy, some fab dress, hat or accessory (that I can't or shan't buy), money, family or career, the ones who'll give me a pat when I did great and a slap when I'm being stupid.
I'll always be grateful that you had the guts to "Take a chance on me", the weirdo girl who's too giddy for her own good. "If you need me, let me know, gonna be around. If you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down. If you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown." ---> I'll always be here, sometimes MIA but always here. Does that even make any sense at all? :))
Thank you for teaching me how to say "No", for making me a little organized and responsible, a little quirky and wild (although I know managed that well on my own but you've contributed a lot), a little mature, a little sentimental, a little bit more excited with life, dreams and love and love and love. Thank you for being there, for sharing my triumphs, my joys, my failures and heartbreaks. For sympathizing with me through all the errors I've made and for backing me up in every life's big, bigger and biggest challenges. You're the best four friends one could ever ask for, and because I'm an only girl, you'll always be my non-bio sisters. ;) Oh yeah! Let's keep in touch and bond soon. I miss you more than you'll ever know. When something great happens, I'll tell you ASAP. I love you all, today and forever (I hope we survive this long distance thing).
This friendship is "Ever thine. Ever mine. Ever ours." (My Immortal Beloved, Beethoven) I may suck at relationships but at least I can say I'm doing my best in this one. Not. It started the day we sang "Dancing Queen" together and I know someday when we're old, gnarly and our memory fails us this song will remind us of how it used to be, how it'll always be our song and how we'll always be friends. Forever, who knows? Maybe we'll get lucky.
Yours til my next letter - your friend forever,
KATING
P.S. This letter was actually inspired by Mamma Mia and Rox (because she gave me this nice, long, touching letter. BUT HERS IS SO MUCH BETTER. I CRIED.). The girls there, they've been friends for so long even if they weren't always together and even if they're living vastly different lives. I hope we have that too. Obviously, all the songs here in quotations are ABBA. WE just love them, right?
